If I have to take morphine, duloxetin, ibuprofen and panodil for the rest of my life, does that mean I’m a junky??? Next week I’m starting at a “Specialist Pain Clinic”.... I’ve been on pain medication for exactly 149 days !! and I’m starting to feel like a junky. Some days when the pain gets to be to much I try to delay taking my first morphine pill. I can make it for about one hour before I scramble panicky to take the pill. As soon as I’ve taken it I feel sad and disappointed about myself for being so weak!!!